Motherhood- The Scariest Hood You'll Ever Go Through
You guys I LOVE my kiddos sooooo much but did anyone else feel like NOW WHAT when leaving the hospital? Where is the instruction manual? Where is the lovely nurses button that I had at my beck and call when I was in the hospital? How am I going to do this? These are all the thoughts running through my mind as we drove away from the hospital with Sienna at approximately 20 miles per hour. So what is the secret to motherhood? The secret is there is no secret. You simply figure it out day by day.
I was the girl that loved my sleep, I mean if I didn’t get eight hours watch out! Now five is the new eight and I have learned to live with it. If I get 6-7 watch out…. I am jumping out of bed with doves flying around my head and song in the air. Once I finally thought I was figuring how to do one thing and what Sienna’s schedule was it would change, and it was like starting at the beginning. But you figure it out, you do it, you survive, you adjust, and you find a love you never knew you could feel.
Then you decide you want a second one. You think, what is one more right? I have already done it before, I got this. Ummmmmmmmm nope! Two is a whole new ball game. I mean Carson is the easiest baby and I still feel like I am juggling things daily. Mom life is hard, people like to talk about and showcase the highlights. What about the real moments? The moments you pretend to go to the bathroom so you can get five minutes to yourself? The moments you realize you haven’t eaten breakfast so you eat some leftover Cheez-Its you find in the car? The moments you realize you aren’t that mom who will never let her child have an IPad so you can get ten minutes to yourself. These are the everyday moments, but they aren’t the moments you remember.
You remember the first time their little fingers grabbed your hand. The first time they said momma or I love you. The first time Sienna held her brother in her arms and kissed him. The first time you became a family of four and looked around and thought how did I get so lucky? These are the moments. The days are long but the years are short, so cliche I know but so true.
So when you’re having a day, know that someone else is too. You are doing great, you are an amazing mom, these little ones love you more than anything, and YOU GOT THIS!
If you ever need encouragement I am here for you.